As recommended by OA and in line with OA tradition, I went to see a nutritionist today. I wanted to get a professional opinion on what the food plan I created for myself should look like. I wondered how far off I was from what I should be doing, after all I compiled my food plan from a variety of sources, plans, and my own thought of what nutrition was.
Well, was I way off. The nutritionist brought me from 1,400/cal/day to 2,100/cal/day. She explained to me in detail how she derived this number which was personalized for my exact weight, height, age, fat percentage, basal metabolic rate, etc. I finally had an understanding of the physiology behind it. Don’t ask me to explain the math formulas, those were over my head, lol.
I almost fell on the floor, lol. This was the first time someone told me to eat more. At first, I laughed. Eat more. This is a first. I’ve been told to not eat, or eat less, or eat something better ever since I was a child.
Then it hit me again that I really do have a disease. It’s not just addiction to food, but I have gained a twisted way of thinking. My understanding of nutrition has been warped by years of dieting and crash dieting. I was still stuck in a “starve myself to lose weight” mentality. I was treating this like a diet, not a way of life.
So, as the shock factor wears off, I am ready to take this professional opinion and make a go of it and eat what she suggests. We’ll see how the next two weeks go.
And after all this, I still can’t help but wonder – how many calories a day did I eat when I was binging?
I don’t even want to know.
Figuring Me Out 