Well, I’ve basically wasted almost a month. Shortly after March 10th, I fell off the wagon and resumed binge eating. Not good. Even worse that I couldn’t get out of the hole I was eating myself into. I emotionally beat myself up over the first binge, which led to a second binge, a third, and here I am starting all over again.
I’ve connected with a temporary sponsor and am glad to be able to call my food into him and get his feedback. I know I can’t do this myself, which is a hard thing for me to admit because I was raised to be self-sufficient and strong. But, I do realize I need to be accountable to someone other than myself, a policing of sorts, in order to be successful.
In hindsight, I could kick myself for the wasted month, but also need to learn how to stop punishing myself and put it behind me. If anyone has this mastered or has read a book on how to do this, let me know, lol… because it’s something I do all the time and really need to stop.
I keep reminding myself… ODAT.
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